Last week I wrote about the Power of Positive Thinking! <--- Which I'm totally excited about these days and I could talk about ad nauseum!
Aaaand - in the glow-y aftermath of manifesting some really cool sh*t - I had the weirdest thing happen to me after I wrote that post . . . which looked something like this:
. . . all of which was ultimately due to the fact that I was telling myself a story (<--- which wasn't true!), that sounded something like this:
"I don't deserve this sparkly windfall of travel + photography."
WAIT WHAAATT?? (Cancel Clear! Cancel Clear!)
Thankfully I was paying attention, and even though it took a few days (i.e. longer than I think it should have!) - I looked inward, and to some favorite resources to recognize the behavior for what it was:
Basically I was having a classic "Upper Limit" experience! Simply put - I was so uncomfortable feeling the joy associated with this amazing new adventure that I am embarking on, I was bringing myself down to a more "normal" level with some negative thinking. Argh!
Brené Brown says that Joy is the most terrifying emotion to feel - when everything is going well (or freaking amazing!), that we tend to sabotage things with the fear that somehow it will all be taken away.
Yep - I was Exhibit A of that for sure!
So why am I sharing this with you? Because I think it's important to be transparent with my people, lest you think that my life is all rainbows and unicorns 24 x 7! Short answer - it's NOT.
And also to say that even though I'm learning to think more positively and re-focus myself in those funky-moods that last several days - it does not happen overnight! In fact Pam Grout (my new hero) says that
"Re-training the mind is much like potty-training a puppy - you have to keep taking it back outside and pointing out the beauty, the majesty and the truth". YES! And as such - I am not beating myself up for falling off the positive thinking wagon. Phew!
I seem to have regained my good mojo this week, it was just a moment! Do you have times where you get stuck in a mood and can't seem to shake it? What tools do you use to move through a funk? I'd love to hear your thoughts - send me a note or leave me a comment!
Love and Light,
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