Three months ago I dropped my older son off at a Junior College in a VERY small town in Northeastern Colorado (let's just call it Nebraska!) . . . a place that could not be less like Seattle. Landlocked, no trees to speak of, no mountains, no large bodies of water, and lots & lots of COWS. (& Cow Poop!) Throw into that mix that it's a pretty red part of a blue-ish state - it really was like landing on a different planet . . . one we weren't able to visit in advance, so the culture shock was immense. There were lots of tears (from both of us!) and trips to Wal-Mart in the three days I was there. It was b-r-u-t-a-l.
You may be asking yourself why he chose that particular school, and the answer is because they offered him a place to play college baseball - which has been his lifelong goal. And regardless of what a kooky place it is - the school has an amazing baseball program and my kid is living his dream. <--- You can't beat THAT!
What's been really cool as a Mom though is how much I've seen him grow up in such a short period of time. I like to joke that I could not have waved a magic wand and found a more perfect place for him to land to instill a better sense of Gratitude in him - for his family, his friends, good food, Starbucks (no joke - there is no Starbucks in Sterling, Colorado!), and his LIFE. It is really nothing short of a miracle.
Part of the reason this has been such a crazy time for me is that I've been a lifelong Change-o-Phobe. No matter how many times I've been told that "Change is Good!", and how many times I've said the same to my friends - the truth is that until about five years ago I really didn't believe it. It has taken a long drawn-out divorce, massive career change(s), and repeated heartache + heartbreak to realize that all of these things bring their own gifts and I could come out the other side not only surviving, but thriving!
To be totally transparent? Watching my son go through big Change on this journey to college has brought back some of my own Change-resistant feelings! However, last night at dinner he was recounting his day, and how he had run into some old friends who are still living at home. He said, "Mom - it's like they're still in high-school. They're stuck!". It was truly insightful for someone who has only been away for a few months. Is my kid going to a four-year, Division 1 school? NO. Is he getting perfect grades? Nope! But he is following his passion and embracing the Change like a champ - and I couldn't be more proud.
Is fear of Change keeping you in a career, relationship or life situation that feels "Shackles On"? Do you feel like you have to know what the outcome will be before you can make that first big step toward something new? Grab your journal and take a few minutes to reflect on what's keeping you where you are - and then share your thoughts in the comments!
Love and Light,
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