A couple of weeks ago something I had been dreading for months actually came to pass: My unemployment benefits ran out. (Cue PANIC!) Yes I sort of had a plan, and no it wasn't a surprise. But I had miscalculated the actual end date by about two weeks - which was kind of a problem!
Being that I'm blessed with some seriously amazing people in my life, and had a few timely photography sales - I've been able to mostly bridge the financial gap, and went back to work on Monday for a former customer of mine. All good right?
Not so fast . . .
For starters I have to drive 30-60 minutes to get to work. During rush hour. Over a Toll Bridge.
I've worked at home for the last five years people - this is a major change!
Also . . . I have to get dressed.
And . . . I have to work with people.
And . . . The job itself is something I'm really good at, but don't particularly l-o-v-e.
Full disclosure . . . I cried in the car during my lunch hour on the first day.
BUT WAIT! Before you call the "Waah-mbulance", I'm going to share why all of this is actually really good.
Working from home is a beautiful thing, but can also be pretty isolating. And I have learned that I don't actually do that well when I have that much time all by myself. Yes I'm an introvert, and Yes I love (love!) my alone time. But when it's all day, every day (regardless of how many people I talk to on the phone), it is not good for my soul.
Not only have I been isolated from other people, but I've kind of isolated myself from the whole world. I don't have TV, and depend on Facebook and the News app on my phone to keep up with what's going on globally. Weak. So during that 30-60 minute commute? I get to listen to NPR - which makes me so happy! (& yes I know I can stream NPR on my laptop, but for whatever reason I just don't.)
As for getting dressed? I actually love clothes and shoes, and while I am not in a position to be doing any shopping at the moment I get excited about putting new outfits together . . . it gives me purpose. There is a pretty flexible dress code where I'm working, so jeans and Converse are totally OK. Really? I have zero reason to complain.
Quirky co-workers and not-exactly-meaningful work? Here's the deal: It's part time (I choose my own hours), and they are compensating me well. I've committed to helping them out through the end of the year at which point we will re-evaluate where they are and if they still need my help. Excellent!
The biggest silver-lining of going back to work?: I still have 1.5 days a week to do my own thing, keep my dog-walking gig, meet with friends and take care of my life. I am now WAY more motivated to get my coaching business off the ground, and have so far done some amazing work on my days off. That my friends, is winning!
I really do believe that "In the waves of change we find our true direction." Are there parts of your life that feel yucky? How do you think you might be able to reframe those? I'd love to hear your thoughts and experiences in the comments!
Love & Light,
p.s. Alternate titles for todays' post included "How to Check Yo-self 'fo You Wreck Yo-self" and "How to Turn that Frown Upside Down" - sometimes I crack myself up! :) Blogging . . . it's a good thing.
Meet me here on Saturdays for some weekly vibes - honoring the week that has past, and clearing the way for what's new. Gather your journal and favorite pen, along with a hot cup of coffee/tea/chai - and settle in for 30 minutes dedicated to YOU.