Last week I sent out the first of this years' monthly newsletters to my email list - Yay! In that newsletter I commented on the fact that I've gotten back to blogging in the last year - which feels so good! After some gentle prodding from a friend, I started my West Coach Blog last March and picked a cadence that felt right (once a week), and as such have been able to stick to it and write about topics that seem relevant and good for this space. I am loving it!!
But . . . did you know I used to have a different blog? Oh yes. About 10 years ago I bought a new camera and began blogging as a way to deal with life as my marriage started to crumble. It was my creative outlet, something pretty and lighthearted I could turn to when everything around me felt bleak. I showcased lots of my photography there, but as far as the written content was concerned well . . . one of my friends once related it to Seinfeld and said, "It's about nothing!". Ummmm right. And having a blog that's about nothing is not the greatest way to build a readership. LOL!
The truth was that I wasn't really looking for thousands of readers, but I did love that my friends and family could keep up with my comings and goings as I shared them - and from time-to-time I would write something close to my heart that I was really proud of. I actually really loved it.
So what happened over there? Well . . . the other thing I mentioned in my newsletter was that I had a stalker of said blog - which is the biggest reason why I stopped writing it! I know that sounds dramatic - but sadly it is true. I had left a job of almost 10 years on not great terms, and my former employer liked to keep tabs on what I was doing by reading my blog, and then send me hate email. It was not fabulous, and definitely not a motivator to keep sharing. In fact I was so driven to make sure he did not know what was going on in my life, that I just gave up on it altogether. For five years.
Yep - you read that right. For five years (FIVE YEARS!), I let that set of unfortunate circumstances keep me from doing something I loved - writing. Don't get me wrong, I tried to get over it. I tried forgiveness, I tried therapy, I tried "I don't care", I tried "everyone is welcome to my public space", . . . I tried a lot of things to push past the fear and in the end what it took was time.
When that experience bubbled up as I wrote my newsletter, I stopped for a moment and think about all the things in life that can cause us to stay small and not let our voices be heard. <--- (and of course that looks different for everyone - it's not just about writing a blog!)
So today I am asking you . . . How would you like to show up differently? What is keeping you Small? Is it Fear? Fear of what exactly? What is the worst thing that could happen? Take some time with your favorite pen and journal - and answer those questions (that last one especially!) - and let me know what comes up! Send me a note or leave a comment. OR schedule a free 30 minute call with me here - let's push past the fear and get your life moving in the right direction!
Love & Light,
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