This week I was sharing my last newsletter with a woman I know from on online coaching group and found myself saying "It's a little bit over the top 'MY LIFE IS AWESOME!' - so take it with a grain of salt." O_o
It's true . . . minutes after I pressed send on that newsletter I thought to myself "Gosh, I sound like a complete asshole!" (Referring to the gushy, upbeat tone of my little cabbage leaf.) Oh well . . . I'll dial it down when I send one next. Which incidentally will likely be in the next few days - be sure to sign up at the bottom of this post!
But I had a little bit of a week this week, and it gave me some time to think about this seemingly eternal spring of optimism, and how sometimes it can cause me to be a little cavalier about things, which in turn can keep me from having to be vulnerable!
So - on Tuesday something happened to my left eye. And by Wednesday it looked like this (avert your eyes if you are squeamish):
Nope - not pink eye. I pretty much knew that from the get-go given how it showed up. But holy-cow it looked bad! Thankfully one of my jobs is for an Ophthalmology clinic, so I made an appointment to have one of the doctors look at it. But weirdly it wasn't until I was in the CHAIR and the lights were off that it occurred to me there might be something really wrong with my eye, and for a couple of minutes I was really scared!
Thankfully it wasn't serious . . . just a burst blood vessel in the eye - which looks horrible, and is totally benign. It was like 80% better by the next day which is remarkable! Hooray for nothing serious and mad props to my eye for healing itself in record time.
The next day I had an issue with my computer where it wouldn't accept my password when I had to re-boot it. After an hour on the phone with Apple Support (with no resolution), I decided to take it into the Apple Store to have them look at it in person. Again, it wasn't until I was sitting at the Genius Bar that it occurred to me that there might be something seriously wrong with my computer! And again thankfully that wasn't the case . . . PHEW!
Here's the thing: I love my life. I love my daily gratitude practice and how it's given me a more positive outlook. I love that I've figured out that Life Coaching + Photography + VA Work are my "three-legged stool of happiness." AND . . . despite what you might see on social media, I also have really REAL days where I look like a weird red-eyed zombie, and I cry about needing to go to the doctor (for a stupid lingering cold/cough) because despite the fact that I have medical benefits it's #&*$! expensive. Just being transparent!
This week I think I realized that a) I used to be a much bigger worrier and b) I'm glad I'm not so much any more, c) that doesn't mean I'm not practicing vulnerability, and d) It's OK to worry a little bit (even at the last minute!) about things that are kind of a big deal - like the well-being of your body and yes, your computer. :)
Have you ever found yourself at the Crossroads of Optimism & Vulnerability? That somehow thinking (knowing?) that everything is going to be alright let's you off the hook from having to really look at your fears? I'd love to hear what your experience has been . . . send me a message or leave me note below!
Love and Light,
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